Wednesday, 22 August 2007

• Emotions

  As my summer vacation nearly comes to an end I start to do more and more thinking. With only one week until school starts the anxiety starts to kick in. You know how every year you make these big plans to be different, but it never happens? Well for once I haven't made these major plans to be someone I'm not. You know why? Because #1. I'm not gonna stick to 'em. #2. It's not worth drama, and #3 I so fucking awesome why should i change? Call me cocky if you want, but I'm sticking to my opinion. Hell if everyone thought they were awesome a lot of problems could be avoided. Moving on. All summer I've been such an emotional wreck. Finally today I looked at myself in the mirror, and said stop being such a lil bitch. Your life is great, you've just encountered a whole group of morons who think it's okay to make people feel bad about what they can't control. It made me snap out of it for a little while. I'm still pissed off at how somethings went down this summer, but hey life's too short to sweat everything that goes wrong. Me and Devin have made up once again, but we'll probably be hating each other again by next week. We have too much of a conflict in personally to ever act like true sisters for a long period of time. Anyways so I'm looking at one of my best friends myspace because she's just so proud of all the codes that she cut and pasted. I'm so happy that she loves her profile, but it's so hard to appreciate what she did when actually code my own layouts. Don't get me wrong I'm definitely a big fan of cutting, and pasting, but don't expect me to be impressed by something you didn't make yourself. So back to the point. I was looking at her friends list, and I see this old friend of ours. Of course I go ask her for a friend request. On her top friend's list I see this group that I use to be apart of. I had to get out a few months ago because I had other obligations and responsibilities. They have like a million pictures of the group, and I just find it awfully interesting that out of all the pictures they have I'm not in any of them. I know I'm no longer apart of that, but my feeling are kinda hurt that I'm not in any of the pictures. I mean I did a lot of work with, and for the group, and they act like I was never even apart of that group. I volunteered, took up money, and even tutored some of the people in that group. I cried when I saw the profile. Should I be a little upset, or am I just making too much of this? Oh well nothing I can do about it anyway. I just got through watching Army Wives and Gilmore Girls, so I'm gonna be up for a while. Those shows always leave me tweaked. What can I say? I love the suspense of it all. Well that's it for now. Oh yea some of you were asking so if you wanna see my new myspace  http://www.myspace.com/purplecutie5691
  

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